Visions and Appearances

When I’m lying in my bed, trying to sleep, I tend to have little visions—let me explain: I simply play a scene in my head, and I always have to come to some sort of conclusion with it. My latest ‘vision’ was intriguing.

            Prom. Senior year. Music. Break gigs. And appearances.

            Appearances is the key.

            I’m not a very confident person. In fact, if I have to be honest, I’d describe myself as meek.

            But that’s not who I want to be; at least, it’s not truly the person I am inside.

            If someone asked me how they looked in their prom dress (and you can see what prom had to do with this inner discussion), my answer would probably be “amazing”. If they doubted them, I’d tell them “beauty is in the eye of the beholder.”

            Because, however cloche, it’s also very, very true.

            So I envision myself going to prom in a beautiful silver dress, wearing tall, eye catching shoes, my nails painted red, my makeup done perfectly.

            But I don’t want to portray myself as “beautiful”.

            Like many say, it’s what’s on the inside. I believe that has to be a bit rephrased to really be true, though. It is what’s on the inside, but if it’s hidden behind layers, no one can see it. Only actions can bring to life who a person is inside.

            So even if I didn’t walk into prom in that beautiful silver dress, to myself I’d still portray confidence. Because if I believe I’m just as important as anyone else (not to be arrogant), instead of sulking in the shadows, who would dare to disagree?

            It’s all about what you want to show the world. That is what makes the difference.